One’s boredom is actually a state of apathy and fear of potential penalties for you. You feel trapped because you are in denial and avoiding what is true, and believe there are no good options. You did, as you wanted to do, because you thought you deserved it. DEPRESSION is anger turned inward on the self, about what you should be and what you could have accomplished. But you had a score to settle! Nastiness only begets more nastiness.