when your choice is to be righteously indignant and suffer or upset yourself because of real or imagined wounds you choose to live in your pain body, you keep recreating and feeding that illusion with varying versions and examples of wounds you hold close. Staying wounded means someone needs blaming and someone needs to make it all better FOR you. Is that what you are waiting for? Many of my relatives and ancestors are in the lower fourth dimension waiting for someone to make it all better for them; they will enjoy your company.
Waiting, wanting, suffering, being righteously indignant, means there is no need for you to be responsible for your creations and the collateral damage you create by not being responsible for you and what you think. Your fear that someone can’t serve or service you to your satisfaction is dark DENSE thinking. It’s your job to serve and be compassionate with you.