Thought is the matrix and the intent or emotion fills the matrix. Only in third dimensional thought are intent and thought separated out. It is a form of denial in 3D thought patterns that you do not feel what you think.
Thought and intent or emotion is the THINKER”S creativity in action.
SERVICE to OTHERS needs to be a gift that is asked for and given without strings, agendas or selfish intent. Service to others is a life style found in the light bandwidth, in higher brainwave states when the soul essence is aligned with cosmic truths and its soul conglomerate.
Service to others ALLOWS others the path of their choice WITHOUT your interference, your neediness or demands on them. You assist when asked, in a manner that they can gain some benefit from. Your DETACHED compassion needs to be in sync with your LIGHT soul conglomerate’s perceptions.
SELF-SACRIFICE is NOT generally asked for and not service to others because sacrifice; always has an agenda of quid pro quo. The main thought consciously or unconsciously is about, “What’s in it for ME.” For example:
“I wanted a baby to satisfy MY need for someone to worship me, and I can have someone to control that is too defenseless to leave me.”
“The child needs to heal my wounds and make me feel better about me.”
When you live in your WOUNDS or “needs” that you won’t satisfy for yourself. You believe SOMEONE else OWES you! Any service to others BEFORE you have cleared up your wounds, needs, addictions or compulsions will be self-sacrifice for both of you and NOT a gift to either of you. You will give with one hand and take with the other hand. In a low state of consciousness, your focus and perceptions are on whom to blame, judge and the punishment they should get. You, the wounded, feel entitled to decide all of that with your VERY limited knowledge and righteous indignation.
SELF-ESTEEM or WORTH is the confidence you have in your worth or abilities and self-respect. Self-esteem is based on YOUR perception of you. What you think and feel about the personal experiences you created for you. Your beliefs, actions and relationships are shaped, sustained or dissolved based on what you choose to give your attention too.
Self-worth is not gathered from EXTERNAL SOURCES, like other people, events or accomplishments. Knowing the most famous, sexy or crazy one doesn’t change what you think about you.
In the dark bandwidth handlers and enablers “the predator part of the victim predator cycle” gather their self-worth by crippling someone that doesn’t want to be responsible for the self or their soul has been crushed one way or another. It is an agreement that both sides of this ATTRACTION of matching frequencies entrain with each other, to avoid responsibility for the self. “The victim” enjoys the role of complaining about how they are mistreated because they refuse to be responsible and compassionate with the self.
Lies, pretty stories, distortion, dis and misinformation, justifications, pleasing, not allowing and self-sacrifice, are only found in the dark bandwidth. Holding thoughts that are NOT universal truths chip away at your self-worth create worry, confusion, doubt and isolation IN YOU, because you are trying to protect yourself from the truth. Dark One’s focus on each other, only lasts long enough to siphon their energy and possibly take something from them to temporarily make one or both feel better. Like all addictions there is a few intense moments of distraction only to need another fix.
When trauma has been your childhood experience, the most common reaction is to hate and blame you, to be angry and frustrated with your inability to protect your body, your state of calm and trust in others. You have disgust for your needs, feelings and your body. That you decide betrayed you.