The right question is why and how did I create this?
If I keep doing what I am doing, I’ll get even more of what I am experiencing. Have I learned what I wanted too? Can I release this feedback loop now? What did I need or want to learn or experience or know?
To answer WHY me, you must STAY conscious, consciously aware of the feedback loop you exist in and maintain with the thoughts you hold. Is your perception of you as being mostly victimized? You are never the predator or confused innocent that denies what is true? How mean spirited and hurtful does your thinking and behavior get?
When one DECIDES or chooses to FEEL victimized, and ask – why me? One also decides they should be compensated; with an arbitrary amount or event they decide they should get. Or, they feel entitled to do some victimizing to “even the score,” or get vengeance. Payback is classic dark on dark thought pattern or behavior, which maintains their low resonant feedback loop. Dark Ones feel that they NEVER get enough payback, or exactly the amount or way they want their payback.
Predators, victims and confused innocents live in DENIAL and unconsciousness. They have low self worth and sabotage themself and those around them, “Misery loves company” “I want him, her or it to be as unhappy as I am.” They reproduce when they are unable to protect, feed or care for the self, let alone another. They consciously or unconsciously, blame and punish the self and others to REDUCE their feelings of guilt and shame about being a predator or in denial about their “innocence.” Their low resonance attracts predatory situations and people to prove to them, that they are worthless. To avoid consciously feeling their guilt or shame, they “get stupid” and deny cause and effect, dissociate or distract themself by pulling the legs off insects.
Victims, predators and confused innocents DENY the nasty, mean spirited things they do, they perpetrate or they WITHHOLD, and wonder why me? Why am I getting punished? Predator, victim and the confused innocent, refuse ownership of their thought and behavior. Denying cause and effect, they believe, allows them to keep doing exactly what they want to do and keep getting the same results. How very surprising! They always feel victimized, do nasty things to others and are confused as to why they attract victimization. Many go so far as to INVENT imaginary victimization to justify their nastiness.
What goes around comes around IS NOT punishment. It is DENIAL about whom they have victimized and they are returning that thought pattern, back to the sender. Like attracts like, you get what you give energetically. Victim predator and confused innocent INHABIT the SAME feedback loop and carry the same slow low resonance.
To change or have any power over this feedback loop, you need to remain conscious and OWN what you think and do. Own it or not, you are your creator.