Especially, when you hate yourself, you have a deep desire to be accepted by the one you hate. Hate is intense passion without compassion, wisdom or awareness. If you HATE the self? Maybe it’s time to increase your compassion and wisdom. Passionate hate is never constructive or helpful. Hate includes judgment and blame and that is never constructive or helpful either.
Consider what you find pleasing about you and try to build on that. Use your consciousness to build a case for strongly liking you. Hate is wasting your energy, your capital and NEVER creates joy. Hate is blaming someone, thing or event for keeping FROM you, what you want or think you need. What if YOU are the one doing that to you?
Hate is confusion and misdirection taking you away from rational thought, compassion and joy, it keeps your consciousness frozen in judgment and blame. Maybe this is a good time to give up being judgmental, unconscious, fearful or in denial about what is true.
FEAR can help you pay closer attention, to discern what you need to avoid, to survive physically and emotionally. Fear also, comes in to challenge your resolve to be compassionate, especially with you, before your history can be transmuted and rewritten.
Fear is most frequently used to cover YOUR guilt, hate and anger. Residing in the feedback loop of victim, predator or confused innocent is how Dark Ones function. They do not ALLOW each other their freedom to choose what they want. They keep giving their power away to each other. They share their personal pain, suffering, confusion and victimhood that they created with their fears, guilt and shame that they deny creating.
Your fears mean “someone else” needs to be your caretaker, creator and hand holder. Your fear of not being loved, of being alone or of you being scared, will not allow others their choices. Fear QUASHES compassion for you and others.
FREE-FLOATING fear or anxiety is an inability to attach your fear to a current situation because it is about an old incident or old pattern of yours found in concurrent realities, ancient fears or a group energy field of fear that you may still be attached to and entrained with.
Honoring dark truths, obligations or rules manufactured for you to please Dark One’s or YOU forcing or abusing you, have NO spiritual value or wisdom in them. There is NO need, obligation or wisdom in honoring them. Loyalty to a parent or leader or ritual or tradition is not being compassionate to you. And is ignorance of how higher consciousness operates. In higher resonances fear, unconsciousness, lies and denial is not “a thing” or concept.
Quantum law of ALLOWING grants individuals the right to have their own reality and resonance. To BE and DO whatever they choose. But VIOLATING the RIGHTS and CHOICES of OTHERS or DESTROYING any part of the collective environment, drops you out of compassion and into a lower gray resonance.